Another sad news... One of my secondary school mate just pass away two days ago in automobile accident. I just be told by one of my friend via facebook. My friend can't accepted and keep writing the condolences in her facebook and MSN also. I guess she might be one of her best friend before although i never know this girl before since we are in different classes.
Actually we are weak although we are the most modified in this world, we can't even protect ourselves from being hurt. There are so many peoples that I known were pass away within this year such as my grandpa, my god- grandpa, my beloved primary school teacher and my school mate some more. We can't judge our fates since we both are created by god but what can we do is make use of our lifes. Throughout so many incidences and tragedies that happened recently was proved me that live is REALLY REALLY SHORT; IT IS TOO PRECIOUS TO WASTE TOO! We must always bear in mind that FAMILY is the most important for everyone to take good care and appreciate. Never let yourself regret for that.
There is no 'take two' in our life. With my deepest condolences, rest in peace, my dear friend. Wish you may have better living at there.

All right, I would like to share some photos that I captured recently to let myself appreciate what I having right now.

DAY WITH NO ELECTRICITIES!!!!!

 The UDE sir didn't want to let us go, HENCE we forced to have outdoor tutorial.... This was my first time did so.... SO LAMN<<<

 

NO MOOD to listen to him, so we just did whatever things WE LIKE.... Reading the notes; Going to Cafe; Take some random pictures some more... Haha...

AFTER the tutorial seesion, Dr. Myinth Than wanna continue his lecture... Again, we having our lecture in dark. May be he like to teach in ROMANTIC.... SHHHH....

 DONE!!! The electricity gained back to us during his lecture... No chance for him to be romantic anymore. Actually we should pity him because he need to shout so loud... HAHA!

THE DAY BEFORE CNS ASSESSMENT

 

I really have no time to finish my revision. Some more, I was immune to the CAFFEINE... JUST forget about it. Since everything was DONE cannot be UNDONE!!!

DR. HAMID's DRAWING

He was complained to his wife that we tried to use the 'high tech' gadget to take down his drawing instead of copy by hand. I think OLD MAN with strong spirit is most suit him... They are the cutiest partners that I never see before BUT he should learn some gadgets to keep him update lah.  I just hope he won't know I was posted his creative drawing in my blog, to make my blog more popular.... Just kidding...

Better In Time

Will everything get better in time? If can, why my eyes always soak with tears when I think of it? Why I want to care so much about their words? Why i can't manage to cheer up myself instead of acting fake. Why I can only smile and laugh truely from my heart by the time i pick up the calls from you? I really miss you so much my darling. Without you, I will never know the time that i should wake myself up; I will always hurt by the 'tuna cans'; and I will always loss myself; loss my destinations... Thanks a lots, my darling.


This is the song lyrics that I post on my blog. It doesn't mean anything, but I just hope and pray my life will get better in time. By the time, I hope I need not care so much about others; I need not to do everything just to satisfy them but make me so difficult; and need not to go through so many assessments that held by my 'paddy' uni. Haha...

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time...

Last hope: I should enjoy my life; my youth but not always blaming the obstacles that i suffered. Less complaining, more constribution!!!

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I'm so regret now. Why i keep on choose to hurt you? Why i never appreciate everything that you did for me? Why i only just find myself regret after drop your line? Why? Why? I always try to control my tempers in front of others but I FAILED to do it in front of you and you choose to forgive me every time. Why you want to be so kind to me? It will only cause me guilty and you need not to do like that.Again, I'm so sorry....

I wish I will never be told about this and I really don’t want to get know of this. I thought I wont mind with this kind of lamn things anymore and I already knew it since early but it was quite hurt to me also when I knew it. I know you wish to back step me although I’m not really sure what your purpose in doing so is. But, can you please do it ‘underground-ly’? For sure you purposely told them to ask me leave and you can come here to ‘show face’. It’s alright if you want to hide from me but please don’t ask them along.

Can you please just let me go? I kept on telling myself behave passively whenever you are there because I don’t wish to have any troubles come to me anymore. This morning I just want to contribute little for this event and I have no any purpose other than that. So sorry to inform you, there are no any rewards for your coming. If you just want to ‘show face’, I think this is not the place for you because everyone is busy to deal with their work and won’t notice you’re coming.
Frankly speaking, I never ‘spoil’ you in front of anyone and nobody knows about it also. Hence. can you please stop doing all the nonsense things and mind your tongue also. Please be minded that one day you might get the same troubles like the person that you betrayed them before.

Whatever it is, I should be thankful to the one who told me everything just now and revealed me how fake you act in front of others.

Again, I'm still at the library doing nothing. I think there is somthing 'wrong' with my 'limbic system' which taught by Dr.Swe just now. Why i keep on remember things that happened in those days, why i can't delete all the memories that you gave to me? Haiz.. No way! noway! I should get myself back to the limbic system first, i shouldn't allow myself wasting my time writing nonsense in my blog.

I'm in library now, suppose this should be the time for me to study, but I'm so lazy.... I'm so lazy to do anything, even just only a few steps for me to reach my college cafe. Haizzz... My laziness strength is damn high now. I wanna prepare my endocrine assessment, I wanna give a call back to my friend who called me just now, I wanna take my lunch, and many many things i should be done by today. I should make everything by today, because i believe that tomorrow will be too late for me since that incidence to me recently. All right, I should get back my mood and finishing all my tasks today. Gambateh!

I guess many of us are in sad mood now and i was so shocked when i received this message from my facebook. I can't even imagine what is the thing that really going on. Is't just a joke? I just promised you that i will met you when i'm free and I know you really want to see me. I'm sorry for didnt keep my promise. I always went back to penang during the holidays, my daddy also keep on asked me to visit you and gave me your address also, but i didnt come to you even once. I know it was too late for me to say anything and everything was too late for me also. Nothing can be done for you and i cant even attend your funeral. I'm really feel so sorry for that and i really miss you sincerely thru my heart.

This is the message that i received this morning. My tears was dribbling when i saw.
"Orbituary : Our beloved 郑丽真老师 has passed away. Our deepest condolences to family and friends of hers. No matter was she taught u or not last time, do post ur words of condolences to her. Thanks."

With my deepest condolences, rest in peace, my dear primary school teacher. Thanks for your strict teaching, thanks for still remember me throughout these years.You are the special in my heart. I will always keep with my promise, I wont left behind from others, I will suceed with my career one day and be a good doctor. Thanks a lots, my beloved teacher.

Wow! Deepavali...This is my first time celebration with my indian housemates and coursemates at Jay's house (one of my housemate's house) in Kajang. So amazing! And I also gain so much 'first' time experiences at there like 'first' time trying so many Infian dishes, 'first' time using hand to eat and 'first' time found myself so enjoying the hindi movie because before that I always be thought that hindi movies only show their dancing. Haha! Whateve it is, thanks so much jay for exposing me some Indian cultures and thanks to uncle and aunty also for treating us.

 

Jay's house

Jay's puppy named Chloe

  View inside the house 

 Hindi Drama but more to the comedy which make us non stopeed laughing. Hahaha...

 

       Stephanie, Magdaline, Jay's sister, Julia and me

  

Stephaine, me, Julia, Jay's sister and Magdaline

Our lunch!!! Yummy!!!! Thanks you aunty!

 

Julia, Stephanie, Mag and me

Mag, Lijie, Julia and Stephanie

 

Mag, Jay, Julia, Me and Lijie

 

Mag, Stephanie and Julia

 

My housemate, Magdaline

 

Jay, Uncle ( Jay's daddy), Aunty (Jay's mummy) and Me 

Happy Deepavali!!!

 

Staphanie ( my coursemate)

Before i drop, I would like to wish Happy Deepavali to all my Indian Friends! Enjoy your day!

I was so touched to see. So different form before, so marvelous. I like the background, the songs and everything that you designed for me. Thanks a lots, my dear 'brother', thanks for your creativity. I will always upload my latest, let you and my friends catch up with me. Be in touch with me every time!

You blamed me for didn’t reply your message last night, you blamed me because of I didn’t treat you well last few days. You didn’t tell me, but your friend did so. Since you damn like to blame others, but don’t you know that you are also the one blamed by others. Don’t always be thought that I will always get with you and i’m not dare to treat you bad. You get me wrong! I treat you not because I need you or like you, is because I just want to live in harmony. That’s why I don’t want to quarrel with you. But your friend came to me last night; she said you are planning to get PR there and asked me to persuade you. No, I won’t. I won’t persuade you anymore. You just go ahead if you think that you like that place so much and since you have so many ‘new’ friends at there, you no need me anymore. I know all of them will thought that we can’t be apart, but I did so. I will prove them I can live by myself, not only with you!
I can see your effort, I know you are trying hard but you did it in the wrong time because I was so frustrated with everything that you done right now. Don’t you know that I also try that hard before? Don’t you know that I get hypoglycemic and insomnia recently? I’m also a man, I have my own feelings also. I also want to get attention. I know this is none of us fault, everything is came from someone else but what I can say is everything was too late for me right now.
By the way, I should start my new life, fully concentrate on the Indian slang English and the old man lectures; and my next assessment is coming some more. That’s why I was slept so early last night, and today should be a new freshens day for me.

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